dear scott

From: Christy Shake
Sent: Monday, January 30, 2006 9:06 AM
To: Scott Shake
Subject: call

dear scott,

thanks for the call. sorry i could not talk long and it was a little
crazy at our house. the eating thing continues to be a MAJOR source of
stress and frustration for us. now calvin pushes most of the food we
feed him out of his mouth. the doctor thinks it is because he wants to
be more independent and participatory in the feeding process. all well
and good but the kid can’t hold food very well in his hands and when he does get it to his mouth, sometimes he chews it but then he pushes it out rather
than swallowing it. sometimes i am not sure how much more of this i can
take. everything takes soooooooooooooooooo loooooooooooooong with him,
it is unbelievable. been working on the crawling thing since may and he
has made very little progress, but at least he has progressed. pretty
much everything takes about 20+ times longer for him than for other
kids. if we project, and if his developmental gap continues to widen,
as it is, he may only make it to about a five year old level by the
time he is an adult, if that. oh scott, it scares me to death. it has
been so hard on us. the future (and present) seem so utterly bleak for us as a family.

sorry to unload this on you at work, but i can't help it and i just
want you to know how i feel.

i love you so much,
christy